Last night was an intense night for me. We have to rush my mom to the hospital because she was having hard time breathing and we suspect she was having respiratory arrest. Good thing that my brother's father-in-law was around when that happens and he help us brought her to the hospital since he have a Ford Pierra(a car), very fortunate and lucky we are. He is truly a lifesaver, its like we arrive at the hospital in only around 15 minutes.
My mom is ok now and recuperating fast, although the fear of losing her still bugging me up to now. It is my greatest fear to lose someone in my life.
I wish i could tell you all the things that bugging me.
About the things that i don't really like about us.
About how much the pressures are like when i succumb to what you want.
You aren't that controlling, i know but there are times that I feel so pressured.
I enjoy our time together, although, I do hope sometimes it isn't that stressful as it is.
You have this sense of speed, fast results and always on the go. I just wish sometimes, that somehow you could tell me, "Hey, take you're time." instead of "I'm gonna wait for you."
"Ok do you stuff while am busy." instead of "Let me finish this one and we go together."
I wish i could tell.
